I’m taking a break from writing at 3273 words. I’ve been fairly relaxed so far. It’s now noon, so I’ll probably write a little more later today. Reaching 4000 seems fairly easy, but maybe I’ll be able to do 5k total today? We’ll see.
NaNoWriMo 2008 has started. I got really drowsy very suddenly, and only got about 1k words done so far. Not the glorious, productive start to NaNoWriMo I had imagined, but at least I am up again at 6am (on a Saturday holiday, no less) and about to continue.
I have this thing where I actually go to sleep when I am sleepy. I don’t like to “force” myself to stay awake; not only do I get very grumpy when I do not sleep enough, I also cease to be productive or creative.
I guess I just have to accept that I am getting old – pulling all nighters is just not as easy anymore as it was ten years ago.
NaNoWriMo begins in less than 12 hours. I spent much of last night working on my outline and character designs, and I’ll post more about that at a later time. I’ll definitely hit the supermarket tonight, for enough supplies for the weekend; this will even include some soda so as to keep myself awake at night. The minimum per day is 1667 words, but the more I get done this weekend, the better.
I’m definitely – no, nervous is not the right word – anxious to get NaNoWriMo done. 50k words; 30 days; why the hell did I get myself into this? 🙂
NaNoWriMo 2008 is almost upon us and I am starting to wonder what the hell I got myself into. Will I really manage to write 1667 words on average each and every day in November? Well we will surely find out… It’ll be interesting, as I am having trouble being creative the last few days, for various reasons that shan’t be discussed on the blog.
Back when I was a teenager, I used to actually write. A lot. Unfortunately twenty years and several problems with my computers mean that I have almost nothing left from those days. Even so, I don’t need to read it again to know that it was pretty much garbage. The difference is that today I recognize the drivel when I put it in a file, and I automatically try to rework it as I do so.
NaNoWriMo forces me to stop doing that. If I don’t, I’ll never complete 50k words. As I spend many hours outlining, I still think “this is nonsense, this wouldn’t happen, this is bad”. But then, after torturing myself for some time over the last three bullet points, I finally tell myself: “It doesn’t have to be good, that is what revisions are for, it just has to get done.”
I had never imagined just how difficult it is to deal with that inner critic. It’s a great lesson, though. After all, isn’t the inner critic also what keeps us from taking chances in other situations?
“Oh, I shouldn’t apply for that job. I doubt I could make it.” And maybe miss out on a good job.
“I shouldn’t talk to that stranger, even though there is a reason to do so. I shouldn’t bother him.” And maybe miss out on an interesting conversation or possibly even a new friend.
“I shouldn’t bother approaching that girl, she’s way out my league.” And maybe miss out on, hey, a whole lot.
I am not saying taking part in NaNoWriMo will make me bother strangers, women, and potential employers afterwards, but in my opinion everything that lets you look at yourself and think about how you deal with the world is a fairly good thing.
As a bonus, I may call myself an “unpublished writer” afterwards.
Now… if you’ll excuse me, I have half a novel to outline, and three and a half days to do it.